2005-02-16 - 9:06 a.m.
Alright, so – my wife.
This is a difficult one to pin down, because feelings are so ethereal and hard to describe, but I’ll try.
For just a moment, close your eyes. (Tough to read with you eyes closed? Amateur.) Now, clear your mind of everything except the darkness – try to erase all images. At this point you should try to put away all of your biases and forget your social, political, ethnic, economic, gender and religious orientations…for just a moment. Imagine for just a moment that none of that matters.
Your mind is blank. Now, slowly imagine that there is a heaven, but don’t try and picture it, just introduce the idea that such a place exists. Instead of trying to see it, try to feel it. Imagine that this heaven is a place of feelings and emotions. Allow yourself to start to feel those emotions and feelings by imagining that this heaven is the most warm, safe place you have ever been. Feel the warmth and safety caress you – now begin to feel that you can trust this place more than anything in existence. This heaven is like a great, soft chair where you feel removed from the world and there are no cares. Imagine that you feel an embrace of love and completeness – you feel whole here. There are no biases in this heaven – only acceptance and love.
You are free to be yourself in every way and heaven doesn’t mind – you experience complete acceptance.
Bask in this moment; rest in this heaven that you are imagining. Now imagine that you can escape to this place whenever you want to.
Are you able to truly put into words the feelings that you feel in such a place? Are you truly able to describe the experience to someone outside of your mind? Can you make them feel what you are feeling?
Now you see my conundrum.
How can I truly describe my wife?
