2005-06-06 - 9:19 p.m.
It's been days since I've been able to post some real content, but that's the nature of things lately. I wish I had time to do all of the things that I'd like to do in a day - I'd probably cure something by accident.
I feel concerned that another Bi-Polar episode is coming on; I've been feeling that sense of impending doom again and there's no reason for it.
Does that ever happen to you...naturally? Do you ever feel as though the world is waiting there, holding it's breath, about to split wide open and release a unstoppable torrent of destruction upon your head? Is it just me?
That's just how it is...it's just waiting...waiting...a small crack forms...a drip leaks out...
Nothing ever comes of it, of course. The feeling passes and life goes on like normal. Sometimes I wonder if it's an internal defense mechanism, which is intended to prepare me for a doom if it comes. I may have developed such a thing in my childhood, who knows.
I need to find some inspiration to make this pass. I need to find the time to be inspired.
Hey, wanna have a get together in D.C.? Let me know...
